dawn marie
sunlit and cold, the two of
us breathing each other in,
the two of us holy and hushed,
despairing and brilliant and all of
the ways we choose to make the
colors of the day
all of the reasons or
all of the excuses
a landscape so full of possibility
it leaves no room for god
looks up, shoots at the sky
where the clouds broke apart for just a
frightened moment
and the sun suddenly and without warning
where every dream was of christ
but none of them were of salvation and
when she spoke it was in someone
else’s voice
when she asked if there was any
reason to keep on going it
was too cold to answer
leaves torn from poisoned trees in
bitter november wind and
all of our doors locked against it
the illusion of safety
the children growing older
a weapon hidden in every room and
then a body found buried
beneath some suburban back porch
a woman naked and
chained in the basement
smaller wars with only victims and
you said this was better
because it cost you nothing
a river run black with blood
and you said it tasted fine
said there was nothing left for me
to do but close my eyes and jump
approaching memory
and road salt and ashes,
sky the color of dust, fingers
that trace the warm curves
of your body
everything else is background
all words are repeated until
they’re bled dry of meaning
desperation should never be
an excuse for art
i think i’d whisper the truth in a crowd of anonymous strangers
all summer stoned down in
mexico and then disappeared
one body for every shallow grave
one hundred miles to the ocean
flowers and weeds and barbed wire
the butchered corpses of
farmers and nuns left in
roadside ditches
cop shot down in his driveway
had the sound of some other song
playing in the back of my mind when i
called you to break the news,
and you told me i was a liar
do you remember?
early autumn and
moonlight in a dark room
first hint of frost
just behind the eyes
kept hearing on the news that it
wasn’t a war but the
death toll just kept on rising
the prisoners all wore masks as
they were lined up
along the water’s edge
man with no eyes read a poem his
daughter had written in those
last feverish weeks before she vanished,
and the priests just laughed
made the sign of the cross as
they cut out his tongue
gave him a shovel then
showed him where to dig
poem w/ migraine
these upright bodies held in
place w/ taut wire
blindness, sickness, smell of vomit
& decay and she asked is
this my love poem?
she said i think my husband knows
shovels,
you understand
bulldozers
man murders his two-year-old son
because it’s easier than
paying child support
son dies as easily as
most children do
listen
saw a girl once on a porn site
who i think i knew in high school,
but i could’ve been wrong
it’s a big country
i would rate god less than what
i would rate an orgasm
politicians i would
feed to sick and starving dogs
it’s like cars w/out mufflers at 2 a.m.
it’s like my youngest boy
awake and crying
cat dead in the middle of the road
bleeding horse stumbling as
he reaches the punchline
hasn’t been able to get it right
since the soldiers cut
out his tongue
John Sweet, born in 1968, is still numbered among the living. He is a believer in writing as catharsis, an optimistic pessimist, and opposed to all organized religion and political parties. John avoids zealots and social media whenever possible. His latest collections include Approximate Wilderness (Flutter Press, 2016) and Bastard Faith (Scars Publications, 2017). All pertinent facts of his life are buried somewhere in his writing.
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